I’m Tired

tired

I’m tired. Ragged, how-am-I-going-to-make-it-to-the-end-of-the-week-tired. With family, working 6 days a week, taking a class with loads of homework, pictures to shoot and/or upload for this photography 101 course I signed up for – forgetting it was for 4 weeks – and writing for my blog, I don’t have much time to rest.

Is there a place beyond tired — bone tired — where you don’t even have the umph to ask for what you need? I’m in a fog of exhaustion where I can only see an arm’s length ahead: reply to this email, return this call, visit and comment on blogs, drink this, prepare dinner, read chapters 1 through 15 for this week’s homework, play with the dog, survive, barely.

I went to see my doc for my annual and when I told her how I was feeling, she asked me “do you have pets?”

“Yes”, I replied.

“Let’s test you for Lyme disease and while you’re here let’s check for thyroid disorder, vitamin deficiency, vitamin overdose, diabetes, anemia and arthritis.”

WTF?

After the technician drew six vials of blood, I was feeling dizzy and nauseous.

Breathe in. Breathe out.

Thoughts about heading to the nearest fast-food restaurant for a greasy burger and fries raced through my mind but I drove home and had an apple instead.

Next thing I knew I stripped down, peeled back the clean, white sheets and crashed.

22 thoughts on “I’m Tired

  1. Poor you! I really admire anyone with children as they manage to juggle so much.. I find it difficult enough fitting in work, blogging, writing, exercising & socialising but if I had a family I honestly don’t know how I’d do it! You could try adding spirulina or wheatgrass to a smoothie for an energy burst.. Good luck!

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  2. It sounds like you just need a little rest. All of us here in the blogosphere can wait. Don’t feel like you need to stay up on everything that is written. unless you’re up to it, of course. 🙂

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  3. Bern! I spit my coffee out my mouth as I read your WTF – too funny!! I’m off for spring break but now that the house is quiet and it’s rainy softly outside, I think I’m gonna take a nap.

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  4. A little sleep, a little time with friends, a little time outside in the sunshine and a bit of music/meditation time might do you a world of good. Try to find at least 10 minutes a day to do something for yourself. Sounds like you’re also a bit overwhelmed. Check in with yourself, it can help!

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  5. I think you’re doing a great job with all this! Whenever I’m overwhelmed I break everything down into the smallest, most minute little tasks, just like you’re doing–take a shower, get dressed, get together everything I need before I leave, drive to the deposition . . . you get the picture. It always helps me.

    Make a list and prioritize. My mom always tells me that one, lol.

    I often don’t have time to write for my blog, so I “re-blog” other great pieces and allow other great bloggers out there to be my guest bloggers. Plus, it helps bring more attention to their great writing!:)

    And you know what? We live in a culture where we’re expected to be working and accomplishing things 24/7. Sleep is seen as a luxury instead of a necessity. Not to minimize your feelings or situation AT ALL, but most of us are tired. It’s the American way. *shaking head*

    I think you owe yourself a really good nap:))

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  6. You definitely need to set aside 15-20 minutes each day to just sit quietly, even if you have to go out to your car to do so. And those who say they don’t have time…are the ones who need it the most. Nothing fancy, just sit or lay down with no noise and breathe slowly and deeply and try to quiet your mind…set your phone alarm to go off after either 15 or 20 minutes, I do 20. That way if you fall asleep, and you probably will in the beginning, the alarm will wake you up. And if you do fall asleep it’s because you need to…good luck, oh and take the pressure off yourself too!! xo

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  7. Sounds like you need some you time. Pamper yourself in some way. I saw you at Jacqueline’s party and I already am following so stepped in to say hi! Sending *smiles* 🙂 to you!

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  8. I think my mind crashed along with you. I could almost taste the bliss of your bed 😉 Do take it easy and break it down. Any day that you are unable to do superwoman is just fine. I have taught my family to expect it now that there are days noodle soup and garlic bread will serve as dinner and life carries on normally. I agree with getting a breather for a few minutes *power nap*

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